This is a very bad day to have being hit with such an epiphany, i am in a whirlpool of pain and internal sufferings right now, how to cope, what to do, what is going wrong, how is it any different, what can be done.

so many questions falling on deaf ears and silent lips, i think i have just reached my limit. exploding will not do me any good, focus might be a better alternative, i have to remember i am not alone in this world or am i?